Broken Glass

Maybe I'm getting too personal here and in considering my last blog, but I'll just go out on this limb and keep talking regardless. I feel like I need to get it out of me... Sort of going off of where that last entry is rooted, today you find me somewhere between ok and well, something much better anyway. Short of just bearing my soul to the world wide internet, I'll just say standing under stark light before my Creator is nothing short of revealing and humbling. But just to be clear, I must impress it is in no way a condemning or chastising experience. I will admit, however; that I find myself still glancing around for my fig leaf multiple times throughout the day though. (I'm "naked" here, remember?) Anyway, the collective experience of God in my life recently is truly something. Even to the point where any and all "mirrors" I've held before my face are lovingly smashed by the One who is replacing them.

I hope where that last sentence stopped makes sense. Because I imagine some minds would inquire or ask, "What is He replacing them with, Amy?" But that's my point - HE is replacing them! HE is the something, the everything that is needed....beauty, worth, answers, consistent clarity, accomplishment, hope, LIFE! Isn't that what we're looking for in our mirrors anyway? You won't find those things "In the dark"....

Truthfully, I'm finding more than just myself though. I'm finding motive, reason....MORE. Ugh I wish the English language wasn't so limited as that all probably sounds rather vague to many. I'm sure any point I could hope to make today would be followed by another question - which would lead me to another point - and on and on it would go. Such is the way of the love of Christ. Never ending....Personally, I'm not questioning IT, I just want to know what the "MORE" is, you see? Don't you? (I mean that as both "Don't you [see]?" and "Don't you [want more]?") Anyway, as I had mentioned in my previous blog the other day, my prayer life has become rather lyrical lately. (He's still using Flyleaf with me these days). But be it in my own writing or that which is produced by others before me, it all ultimately leads back to who I know to be the world's greatest Author.

In a conversation He and I were having, albeit on paper as well; sometime before dawn the other morning, I'll share a tiny bit of it (only a tiny because I'm already looking for my fig leaf around you people)...

"My love, I have found you
though you were never far
from Me, you knew
by trace of the scar"

[Insert sound of broken glass here]

Oh, sweet Jesus, I am "swept away" by your "great love"......

"Swept Away"
      Flyleaf

[Help help help
Out out out out out out out
Now now now now now]

Evil fell from your pretty mouth
Wrapped in your classic voice
Angelic in your syntax
Demonic in your motive
Your pretty eyes don’t know that
The water flowing from this well isn’t fresh
Demolish all that sets you up against your rising up
Confessing all that’s broken and watch the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Turn all the way around
Be swept away by this

Time for surrender
Spread out your open hands
And He will raise you up
Confessing all that’s broken
And watch the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Be swept away by this

Your clothes are smooth and spotless
The air is putrid sewage
Downwind of your pressed church clothes
Your eyes are black and empty
Your deeds are just for showing
How big and bright your fake smile glows
I see you moving and they're getting scared
Their eyes are focusing on something else
You're staring at me and I stare at you
I rage against everything that you do

See them surrender
Spread out your open hands
And he will raise you up
Confessing all that’s broken
Look at the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Be swept away by this

I see you moving and they're getting scared
Their eyes are focusing on something else
You're staring at me and I stare at you
I rage against everything that you do
Get this hell out out of my way
There’s nothing more that you can say so
Get this hell out get this hell out out out of my way
So get this hell out get this hell out out out of my way

We spread our open hands
And He is rising up
Repairing all that broken
Look at the healing come
We spread our open hands
Forgiveness holds them up
We’re swept away by this


"Great Love"
     Flyleaf

Great love setting the world on fire
I am in awe of who You are
And it's Your love I'm living for

Can't you feel I'm drawing near
The place that broke your heart
Cut up and scarred
The dawn is breaking
My body's shaking
Oh, the secret memories you keep
Ignoring so that you can sleep
I'm facing what you won't tonight
The dawn is breaking
My body's shaking

Great love setting the world on fire
I am in awe of who You are
And it's Your love I'm living for
Great love filling me up inside
You are the one I'm looking for
And I am Yours forevermore

There I was awaiting death for you
And all I did was love you too
I'm facing what you won't tonight
The dawn is breaking
My body's shaking

Great love setting the world on fire
I am in awe of who You are
And it's Your love I'm living for
Great love filling me up inside
You are the one I'm looking for
And I am Yours forevermore

There I was awaiting death for you
And all I did was love you too

Great love setting the world on fire
I am in awe of who You are
And it's Your love I'm living for
Great love filling me up inside
You are the one I'm looking for
And I am Yours forevermore
You are the one I'm looking for
And I am Yours forevermore
And I am Yours forevermore






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